As I continue to stumble for the proper words in genuine efforts to adequately express the heavy grief I (we) have been experiencing, this photo below really resonated with me this morning.
There are two scriptures that have been repeating in my thoughts lately, and they are:
“When He had received the drink, Jesus said, “It is finished.” With that, He bowed His head and gave up His spirit.” – John 19:30 NIV
“I can do everything through HIM who gives me strength.” – Philippians 4:13 NIV
It is difficult to fathom that today is the 365th day from when my Dad went to be with our Heavenly Father. It still feels icky to even type that and it still feels as if this happened just a moment ago.
If you can image for a second what it might be like to be in the eye of a tornado. Completely still yet surrounded by a blurry wall of clouds spinning at speeds of 300+ mph for miles high. Maybe feeling a mist in the calm center and seeing lightning and other twisters forming and breaking off overhead — hearing loud hisses or a roaring howl of wind vibrating as it moves — and then it’s gone.
The destruction of the storm leaves behind a heavy burden of heartbreak, which is exhausting. Jesus has been carrying me (us) through this year — and continues to — which is what makes the photo above so accurate even if I don’t feel I’ve “come far” or that “I’ve made it” I need to give myself some credit that I’m certainly not going backwards and that is progress within itself. This morning my quick thought of, “How did we get here?” was immediately answered with the only answer, “Jesus”. He goes before us, and then beside us, and He never leaves us.
I would like to end this post with another very special Kari Jobe song, “I Am Not Alone”. I know so many of you have been experiencing the loss of a loved one, and you know what? You are not alone..
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